Eh, it's just confusing.
The one night stand that refuses to end.
Right, a couple of years ago, I kinda dated this boy. I say dated, we were technically a couple, but we never actually... well, did anything. I don't consider it a proper relationship, but apparently he does.
Anyway, a few months ago, he finally actually mentioned that. It doesn't seem like much, but it was, considering his character. In general, he tries to act as straight as possible. However, the same night he mentioned that, I damn well near had sex with him, but I didn't.
Since then, we've had a few occasions where we've got intimate. It's not been that many, but it's been enough to get me wondering about him. He says that he does it just because he's attracted to me physically, but generally speaking he's straight, so he thinks I'm sexy enough to bang or something.
However, we haven't actually had sex. Oh, it comes very close every time, but we just don't. I'm never sure what happens to stop it, but something does. Most of the time, it happens when we're drunk, but on a few occasions he's been sober, so I'm left wondering why.
It's like he knows that if he doesn't have sex with me, every time he offers himself I'll take it, and I know I will since I've wanted to have sex with him for the better part of two years. I think he knows that, and that's why he does it. But because of it, I can't handle any other relationship, because I know that if I'm with some other boy and Mr One-Night-Stand-That-Wont-End offers himself, I'll take it. I don't want to run the risk of cheating on any potential partners :/
Any thoughts on what to do?
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