I read every word of that, and even if nobody else can be bothered, most people just skim, know that you have truly inspired one person, I know exactly how you feel Exactly, to the dot.
I'm feeling nervous for GCSEs, happy with the state of my life, confused because I haven't been with anyone properly in a long while, and i'm scared it will go wrong, terrified that in 2 years i'll be on my own in a totally new environment (uni), sad because i'm leaving school (an environment ive grown to fucking love), pissed off at people taking me for granted and just being 'Seth, that gay one' and thoughtful from all of the above. It's the most horrid feeling, when you want to cry, but can't, can't bring yourself to even fucking cry. I didn't even cry when my grandma died. Shit like that is fucked up, but I try to live with it, go to another bar and move on.
It's shit, totally shit. But, fuck it. Fuck it. Don't matter yeah? Turn your back on it and say fuck you. Don't ignore your problems, don't hide your sexuality, admit it, live proud and live honourably.
No matter what.
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