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Originally Posted by Peaceandluv4all
What do you do when you feel sad and suicidal...
I am gay and teen but I am also very lonley and sad..
In my school I am kinda openly gay and whenever I ask the openly gay guys in my school out they just dismiss me and call me ugly and that I am a waste of theres and everyone elses time and that I will never love ugly me. I just want to know how to impress them and make them think I am hot instead of ugly...I just wish I had a boyfriend to hug and love instead of having all of the gay guys in my school shuning me
Sorry gys I am just real depressed now I feel like kiling myslef
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At the risk of sounding repetitious, suicide is definitely not the way to go, and you should do your best to put such thoughts out of your mind (which is easier said than done).
Regarding your relationship with your gay counterparts, there is no doubt that their actions have hurt you very badly to the point of questioning your existence. The fact remains is who are these folks to judge you and your attractiveness and/or merits? Gay or straight some people are just plain assholes, and you should not let narrow-minded fools make you feel bad. The fact remains you cannot beat idiots because they have so much more experience when it comes to stupidity.
If this would help any, one option that you can pursue is to branch out and make friends outside of the gay community. Gay or straight we are all people, and there is no reason why you should limit yourself to gay people. Not all friendships have to be romantic, and even if there are kids in your neighbourhood with whom you can hang around that is the first step to building up your self-esteem. Don't let homosexuality define you because you are a person first, and your sexual orientation is merely incidental.
The option that I really should have mentioned first was to be tight with your family. While the unfortunate truth is that quite a number of homosexual kids can be shunned by their family, the fact remains that there surely must be someone in your household who is level-headed and who will love you unconditionally. Boyfriends come and go, but it is your family that is your constant. It takes time for families to come to grips with a member who is homosexual, but the fact remains that you are their flesh and blood. Hopefully, there is someone in your family who will be there for you.
Finally, assuming that you are either in high school or college you definitely should seek out a counseler if the family option doesn't work out for you. There is no doubt that you may need to seek counseling as a way to develop strategies to deal with your feelings. It is hard enough to be rejected in this heterosexual world; to be rejected by your homosexual counterparts is nothing short of shocking.
In closing, you have many options open to you other than suicide. The first step is to love yourself and to build up your self-esteem. Unfortunately, no one but you can accomplish that task, and you absolutely need to find positive attributes about yourself. Try to find a trusted relative or a responsible adult such as a teacher, professer, counseler, school administrator, etc. who can help you. There are limits to what we can do over the internet, and the best people who can help you are those on the ground near you. I would urge you to seek assistance, and do not let a small cabal of fools ruin what otherwise should be a great time in your life.