Why is it that individuals reduce everything down to sex, isn't it more than that… to me it is, and it somewhat offends me when, that is all some individuals think of… I'm a bit of a nympho and I'm not even that bad, its more, just the joking, talking, referring it to even the most simplest of things… talking of it as if it was something so light or common to an everyday activity… but its not… see for me, and don't take me wrong, if I wanted it there are enough people that I know, to where if I wanted it I could have sex everyday more than once… and I will be honest its my regret but I've had that, but why… doesn't it or wouldn't it loose its meaning, and maybe its that very reason that other people don't treasure even the word itself, as I do… for me sex is like a kiss but more…..
A kiss… a unity, and somewhat of an agreement between two individuals… stating a form of love that is deeper than that of just the love that two friends share…it says the things that you cant find in word… "telling secrets but with our mouths"… when linking with another in this form, you feel the first signs of what it is to truly be in love… to be alive, with another person… a kiss can tell you everything there is to know… if it can grow or not, you begin to feel this in you heart…
Sex is more, why do you sleep with someone or why do you make out, its not just because its fun or it has its pleasure, but more its because you care, and you love them, and you want to show them in that special way, that most treasured thing the one thing you can give or take according to the one you love… at least that is what it should be… for me its not about the sex, it is fun and the icing on the cake… but for me, when I like some one I'm not thinking about sleeping with them, but more just how I am going to treasure every second I am with them… how I can make those moments last forever… I just enjoy it all, whether it is just sitting with one another or being able to sit and kiss the individual to hold them down and talk to them, but when I do get to the extent of the whole sex thing its because I want to share something deeper… it is because I have tried to keep it a treasure and safe and a special moment, a proclamation to all for the two that dare to love, when it comes down to it, I feel its time, not only for just sex but more… when sleeping with me I tell you the world and just everything that it is to me… and then how much of that world you mean to me where you fit into the broad picture… how things really are between the two of us…
I am only Human…we are individuals in this world, we are all on a rail system of principals, standard, ways by which we live our lives, constantly moving never ending. Though there are times when the rails buckle and weaken, causing us to lose control and get week our selves… then most of what we are is lost, but always to be remembered is we aren't far gone…
I've failed at this so many times… sex is more but I myself have abused it. Regrettably it is to my shame that I do get weak and forget some of the things that I should and do stand for, and even stand against… but the love that I have for a individual is overwhelming and often a reason someone will leave. I am too much at times… even for my self. I just feel they are my one and ill share all that I can and feel… its love not just sex. But as I said sometime misunderstood…
I am sorry If I have pushed you, if I have not waited until the proper timing for some of the things that we have done... if I have Dated you and not have done as you would have liked or had wished me to… Please forgive me, if you have been a victim of the past… of the old me… of those times when senses have become overwhelming. Then it is to you that I am sorry.
And to others a warning, not to stay away, just simply to understand… we all have bodies in our closets…