Ever since I was young I could tell I was gay, but REFUSED to believe it. I guess around 11 or 12 I starter jerking off to gay porn, and afterwards i'd be disgusted with myself. I would keep telling myself "You AREN'T gay, You AREN'T Bi, You like WOMEN" I tried to believe it. I sometimes tried to see other guys I knew naked, with little success.
My Freshman year in high school was when I really came out. Well, halfway anyway. My bes friend at the time, Brittany was dating a bi guy, Zack. I ended up meeting him and being good friends with him. Zack was cheating on Brittany with my first gay friend Billy. Billy wasn't very good to look at, but he had a great personality...sometimes. So i was friends with a bi guy and a gay guy. I was really close to both of them.
I started admitting to myself just a little bit that i was bi. I told 2 people, Best friend Brittany and ex girlfriend Andrianna that i thought i may be bi. I thought about it over and over, wondering how i should say it, and to who. I had noticed the gay and bi friend i had had so many friends, no one really hated them. I decided to just come out with it... so to speak, haha.
I texted my gay friend Billy. I said "billy, i think im able to say it, Im bi and i have a crush on zack you and some guy who i think is named bob" That was December 17th, 2005. I told all of my friends and they were all very proud of me. Some couldnt believe it, some were happy, some were just like "its about time"
After a while, i realized I didn't really like women sexually. In fact, pussy scared me. I really liked men and dick, tho i was very prude for a while. I came out to myself as gay around june of 2006, but still every year i celebrate my homoversary on december 17th 2005.
Coming out to Mommy:
This is a funny story
We were watching greys anatomy then a commercial (toyota truck commercial) came on. I just flat out said it. heres our conversation.
"Mom, I'm bi."
"You're WHAT?!"
"I'm bisexual"
"ok"
-few minutes later-
"Thats all your going to say?
"well what do u want me to say? I still love you"
"I knew youd say that, what reason would u have not to?"
"well... thats not what I... I meant to say... you didnt understand.. i erm oh look greys anatomy is back on"
I came out to her as bi in july of 2006, even tho i was really gay. She knows im gay now tho.
So yeah, I'm gay and I'm happy and I'd never want it any other way.