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jrussoff · 03-13-2008, 04:03 PM

so im kinda pissed right now and a little emotional so i thought id share my personal life with the world and hope it makes me feel better so here goes...

over the summer i decided that i was bi but no one knew about it and i didnt really plan on telling anybody. i work with this kid, lets call him dan, and were already kinda friends but once we started working together we got to know each other better and i considered him a pretty good friend. after hanging out with him a while, one night after work we went to this park and i told him i was bi (hes gay btw) but that it was more in a sexual way than anything else. he leaned in to kiss me and then we went further into the playground and did some things (it was like 10:30 at night so no one was around). after that, we started talking online and stuff and i found out that he had really liked me and he wanted a relationship but i really wasnt ready for that cuz it was all new to me. he seemed to understand why i couldnt be in a relationship at that time but basically for the next like 2 months we were basically booty calls. then all of a sudden i realized that i do like him a lot and it took me a while to think everything over but after thinking about everything for a long time i decided that i really like him and i want to be in a relationship with him. by this time he had moved on from me but somehow we continued to be on and off with our booty calls. you also have to understand that there was soooo much more going on at this time between us but basically by this time he stopped liking me and i started liking him. anyway while we were having our booty calls, i saw it as something more than just that but then he saw it as just that, a booty call, and he started seeing other people. then in like december her told me he wanted to be in a relationship and that was the first itme that we fucked. after that he was jsut like oh im sorry but you like me way more than i like you and i cant be using you like this. so the day after we had sex he went and hooked up with someone else. it took me a while to get over him, like a solid month probably but you know after all that i felt like i was completely fine and that i was over him. so now out of the blue, all these feelings for him have started coming back to me and i actually just cant handle it because it really does hurt a lot. i just dont know what to do because hes still friends with most of my friends and i see him everywhere but whenever i do i jsut get reminded of everything we did and i start really regretting not getting together with him over the summer. and i know that i cant look back at things like that but i really cant help it at all...

so i think the point of all that was just to rant a little bit because i always feel a lot better after a good rant but if anyone has any advice im all ears...

03-13-2008, 04:03 PM	#1 (permalink)
jrussoff Official GTF Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Massachusetts Age: 18 Gender: Posts: 23	so how pathetic is this so im kinda pissed right now and a little emotional so i thought id share my personal life with the world and hope it makes me feel better so here goes... over the summer i decided that i was bi but no one knew about it and i didnt really plan on telling anybody. i work with this kid, lets call him dan, and were already kinda friends but once we started working together we got to know each other better and i considered him a pretty good friend. after hanging out with him a while, one night after work we went to this park and i told him i was bi (hes gay btw) but that it was more in a sexual way than anything else. he leaned in to kiss me and then we went further into the playground and did some things (it was like 10:30 at night so no one was around). after that, we started talking online and stuff and i found out that he had really liked me and he wanted a relationship but i really wasnt ready for that cuz it was all new to me. he seemed to understand why i couldnt be in a relationship at that time but basically for the next like 2 months we were basically booty calls. then all of a sudden i realized that i do like him a lot and it took me a while to think everything over but after thinking about everything for a long time i decided that i really like him and i want to be in a relationship with him. by this time he had moved on from me but somehow we continued to be on and off with our booty calls. you also have to understand that there was soooo much more going on at this time between us but basically by this time he stopped liking me and i started liking him. anyway while we were having our booty calls, i saw it as something more than just that but then he saw it as just that, a booty call, and he started seeing other people. then in like december her told me he wanted to be in a relationship and that was the first itme that we fucked. after that he was jsut like oh im sorry but you like me way more than i like you and i cant be using you like this. so the day after we had sex he went and hooked up with someone else. it took me a while to get over him, like a solid month probably but you know after all that i felt like i was completely fine and that i was over him. so now out of the blue, all these feelings for him have started coming back to me and i actually just cant handle it because it really does hurt a lot. i just dont know what to do because hes still friends with most of my friends and i see him everywhere but whenever i do i jsut get reminded of everything we did and i start really regretting not getting together with him over the summer. and i know that i cant look back at things like that but i really cant help it at all... so i think the point of all that was just to rant a little bit because i always feel a lot better after a good rant but if anyone has any advice im all ears... __________________ i'm a nice kid who's fun to hang out with and i'm always bored so feel free to contact me