AndreHasDied.

Okay so im dating this guy christian. sooo yeah anyway i ended up dating him after my last relationship went to the pits of hell (and he is my Exes best friend which i didnt know until after we started dating). anyway we have been since the beginning of the relationship we took an oath that we would tell eachother everything. anyway last week on the phone he pretty much told me that his past fling pleasured him more than me or whatever. so after he told me that i pretty much told him that im not a sex person and i will never be since i lost my virginity to his best friend and he laughed (he is pretty much an ex whore who has many past flings with guys). so after that i was miserable and i told my best friends since i tell them everything.

they pretty much ragged on him about it saying "you dont do things like that and thats one of the things you keep to yourself." anyway he pretty much told me that he said something polar opposite saying something like i treat him the best than his past flings or whatever. the thing that upsets me is that he totally compared me to steven or whatever his name is and like told me he is gorgeous and he pleasures him more...so whats going on in my head is "why the hell are you with me and not him?" i already have the lowest self esteem, so it's really hard to let this go.

well i did at first want to leave him since i thought he was just a rebound to me but i actually really do love him. i dont want to be overdramatic though because in my last relationship went to hell because of overdramatic emo garbage from my ex, but i want to know if he really likes me or whatever since he pretty much told me all that.

idk i feel better after that rant. =/

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