Clint Face

coming out for me... well I'm from Utah, not to bash the LDS church but the majority preach their own thing, and don't all live there religion. religions should be defined as to the manifestation of god threw a single individual.

i tell you this because it is a serious problem... i deal with it every day. coming out for me will be difficult. i figure you could say im bi... because it easier for some of them to deal with, and it is, but im lying to them and tragically to myself... truth is im gay, i love boys. i feel better with them than i do a girl. i cant see myself with a girl.
but that is a problem, not for me... and my friends, the public, my school, the college, even some of their families claim me... they all know I'm Gay!... yay... but the problems are in my family, they are very religious. they are a big part of my life, i don't want to loose them. Its Utah and many are against me...

my mother i told, she threw me out for a week. she let me came back after a dozen other people yelled at her. she didn't deserve it. this is all new to her. she was raised to look down on it. she said i wasn't to bring home anyone, and not to talk about it at all... i live in her own denial. But what can you do?

my father and my little brother know, they are all cool with it, won't say whether it is right or wrong but won't judge me. they love me anyways.

my older sister and a couple of cousins know. they dont care, and think its rather cool.

my aunts and uncles and grandparents.... AHH! i want to tell them but i think i should be on my own and 18. then brake it to all of them at once...they deserve to know, but How Do I, How Would You Do It? i still want to have a family. some wont be cool with it, and others might. What Should I Do? Should I Wait Till I'm Eighteen? cause if it gets back to my mother ill get thrown out again, and i cant survive. i have no money, no where to go, and my job just doesn't pay enough.

I just want to live, survive. i just want to do things right.

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reminiscence

First of all, do NOT say you're bi. They'll just try force girls on you to ''make your life easier''(ie theirs less embarrassing). And don't tell your grandparents now, if ever. I'm never gonna tell mine. I don't see the point, odds are (unfortunately) they wont be around when I'm in a really serious relationship. You don't want to ruin your last few years with them just so you can get it off your chest, especially since it won't even make you feel better.

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FreddyN

Although I am not in Utah, I have to deal with LDS people everyday because my family's faith is LDS. Every morning I go to seminary and no one suspects at all that I am not straight (besides the fact that I mainly have friends that are girls). If I were to come out, all of the people around me would swarm and try to "reach out" to me and convince me that what I am doing is not right. The people that I know are not gay-friendly but they are really good friends. Like you, I want to come out so badly. This was on my mind all day and I'm really surprised to find someone like me that I can relate to. Unlike you, I am out to two people who are some of my closest friends even though I have only known them a short time. From the sounds of it, you really want to come out and if you are really comfortable with the person you are and truly want people to know, just tell them. Even if you find that people can't accept it, the important thing is that you are who you want to be. I don't think that I can express that enough. I am at the point myself that it would not bother me if everyone knew that I was gay while it would at the same time (the reason I am still in the closet). It is really hard to be accepted for who you are around LDS people because of the narrow-minded focus they have on the ideal person. I think that once you come out to your family, it can't get much harder because you will always find someone to confide in no matter where you go. I happen to go to a school that barely has an LDS people but is still very homophobic and the two people that I have met have been my strongest crutches. With them I have found that I am more comfortable with who I am. For me, having friends like them would help me more with coming out of the closet than losing all of the friends that I have. I am sure that people will eventually come around, especially those who are your closer friends.

~FREDDY~