so how pathetic is this

jrussoff · 03-13-2008, 04:03 PM

so im kinda pissed right now and a little emotional so i thought id share my personal life with the world and hope it makes me feel better so here goes...

over the summer i decided that i was bi but no one knew about it and i didnt really plan on telling anybody. i work with this kid, lets call him dan, and were already kinda friends but once we started working together we got to know each other better and i considered him a pretty good friend. after hanging out with him a while, one night after work we went to this park and i told him i was bi (hes gay btw) but that it was more in a sexual way than anything else. he leaned in to kiss me and then we went further into the playground and did some things (it was like 10:30 at night so no one was around). after that, we started talking online and stuff and i found out that he had really liked me and he wanted a relationship but i really wasnt ready for that cuz it was all new to me. he seemed to understand why i couldnt be in a relationship at that time but basically for the next like 2 months we were basically booty calls. then all of a sudden i realized that i do like him a lot and it took me a while to think everything over but after thinking about everything for a long time i decided that i really like him and i want to be in a relationship with him. by this time he had moved on from me but somehow we continued to be on and off with our booty calls. you also have to understand that there was soooo much more going on at this time between us but basically by this time he stopped liking me and i started liking him. anyway while we were having our booty calls, i saw it as something more than just that but then he saw it as just that, a booty call, and he started seeing other people. then in like december her told me he wanted to be in a relationship and that was the first itme that we fucked. after that he was jsut like oh im sorry but you like me way more than i like you and i cant be using you like this. so the day after we had sex he went and hooked up with someone else. it took me a while to get over him, like a solid month probably but you know after all that i felt like i was completely fine and that i was over him. so now out of the blue, all these feelings for him have started coming back to me and i actually just cant handle it because it really does hurt a lot. i just dont know what to do because hes still friends with most of my friends and i see him everywhere but whenever i do i jsut get reminded of everything we did and i start really regretting not getting together with him over the summer. and i know that i cant look back at things like that but i really cant help it at all...

so i think the point of all that was just to rant a little bit because i always feel a lot better after a good rant but if anyone has any advice im all ears...

Dan · 03-13-2008, 07:32 PM

Hey, sorry to hear you lost someone. Wanna chat or something? pm me

BrianC · 03-13-2008, 07:38 PM

sorry i can't think of any advice i usually can just having a random time... well anyway you live you learn i guess you can just chawk it up to experience and hope you don't make the same mistakes again

t.A.T.u. · 03-13-2008, 09:37 PM

I don't think that's pathetic- it's just one of those things that you're not ready for, then when you are, it doesn't end up working out. Unfortunately, those things happen to many of us, and when we're not ready for them

Anyways, I know it may frustrating but I hope u get through it okay........

jrussoff · 03-13-2008, 09:45 PM

thanks guys you're all great
i think what might cause me to keep coming back to him is that one, he was the first and only guy that i had been serious about and had actually done stuff with and two, that he was the person i turned to for help and anything having to do with coming out and just the whole gay thing. he was there for me through all of that and that probably why its just really hard for me to let go...but im working through it and im going to college in like half a year so im not too worried about this

dragon072891 · 03-14-2008, 12:43 AM

im really not the best person for advice

but i have had the same thing happen to me, in almost the same fashion...

the only reason i was able to get over him, was because of what he done to me..

he decided he was bi, and tried to get with my sister, well that was a mistake, becaus i have a very large family, with alot of connections,,, and to cut a long story short we rocked his little world

but i still have to work with him, and hes really not that bad

all i can say, is time heals all wounds,, the sudden rush of feelings you feel is just a cast off regret surfacing

the best way to release them faster, is to write down how you feel, then read it aloud, and burn the paper its written on

Ringo Ichijo · 03-16-2008, 02:11 AM

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Originally Posted by dragon072891

all i can say, is time heals all wounds,, the sudden rush of feelings you feel is just a cast off regret surfacing

the best way to release them faster, is to write down how you feel, then read it aloud, and burn the paper its written on

yeah... i think i agree with him. i actually burned all of the notes someone i was in love with gave me. i suppose it was sort of a healing thing...not that it prevented it all from happening again. but, whose to say what could happen in good time? you could still end up together, or you could get over him and find yourself someone even better.

AndreHasDied. · 03-21-2008, 07:34 PM

I believe its one of those things you learn from and helps you in life. so it makes you stronger ^__^

yingyang69 · 03-22-2008, 12:11 AM

i just think it's funny that in the first post he said "i work with this kid, lets call him dan"
then the next person to post's username is dan^_^
unless it was planned in someway that im not aware of >.<

Dan · 03-22-2008, 12:03 PM

lol no it wasn't planned that way, not by me anyway. that is funny though I didn't even notice

theaznway · 03-22-2008, 02:54 PM

I really know what you mean...
Something similar has been going on with me for about a year.
There's really no advice to give...the only way to get over it is to just let it fade away.
Sorry to say but it takes a while.
Hope you feel better!

jrussoff · 03-23-2008, 12:07 AM

haha i didnt notice that either but his name isnt actually dan

yeah the day i posted that story i was just really pissed about everything but me and "dan" have been getting more or less back to normal and yeah its still hard because i do like him, but id much rather have it like this and be friends with him than have it be really awkward and him ignoring me like it was in the fall. but thanks for all the advice and help, you guys really are great

bibutbabyigetit · 03-24-2008, 08:51 PM

There's a song for this one, baby. The first cut truly is the deepest, and don't we all know it. But there's another song I find to be equally true...every day is a winding road, another fading sign, and we all get a little bit closer to feeling fine.

It sounds sappy, but believe me, there was a deep thought behind this. One day, I'll tell you what I meant.

03-13-2008, 04:03 PM	#1 (permalink)
jrussoff Official GTF Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Massachusetts Age: 18 Gender: Posts: 23	so how pathetic is this so im kinda pissed right now and a little emotional so i thought id share my personal life with the world and hope it makes me feel better so here goes... over the summer i decided that i was bi but no one knew about it and i didnt really plan on telling anybody. i work with this kid, lets call him dan, and were already kinda friends but once we started working together we got to know each other better and i considered him a pretty good friend. after hanging out with him a while, one night after work we went to this park and i told him i was bi (hes gay btw) but that it was more in a sexual way than anything else. he leaned in to kiss me and then we went further into the playground and did some things (it was like 10:30 at night so no one was around). after that, we started talking online and stuff and i found out that he had really liked me and he wanted a relationship but i really wasnt ready for that cuz it was all new to me. he seemed to understand why i couldnt be in a relationship at that time but basically for the next like 2 months we were basically booty calls. then all of a sudden i realized that i do like him a lot and it took me a while to think everything over but after thinking about everything for a long time i decided that i really like him and i want to be in a relationship with him. by this time he had moved on from me but somehow we continued to be on and off with our booty calls. you also have to understand that there was soooo much more going on at this time between us but basically by this time he stopped liking me and i started liking him. anyway while we were having our booty calls, i saw it as something more than just that but then he saw it as just that, a booty call, and he started seeing other people. then in like december her told me he wanted to be in a relationship and that was the first itme that we fucked. after that he was jsut like oh im sorry but you like me way more than i like you and i cant be using you like this. so the day after we had sex he went and hooked up with someone else. it took me a while to get over him, like a solid month probably but you know after all that i felt like i was completely fine and that i was over him. so now out of the blue, all these feelings for him have started coming back to me and i actually just cant handle it because it really does hurt a lot. i just dont know what to do because hes still friends with most of my friends and i see him everywhere but whenever i do i jsut get reminded of everything we did and i start really regretting not getting together with him over the summer. and i know that i cant look back at things like that but i really cant help it at all... so i think the point of all that was just to rant a little bit because i always feel a lot better after a good rant but if anyone has any advice im all ears... __________________ i'm a nice kid who's fun to hang out with and i'm always bored so feel free to contact me

03-13-2008, 09:37 PM	#4 (permalink)
t.A.T.u. Official GTF Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: U.S.A. Age: 16 Gender: Posts: 624	I don't think that's pathetic- it's just one of those things that you're not ready for, then when you are, it doesn't end up working out. Unfortunately, those things happen to many of us, and when we're not ready for them Anyways, I know it may frustrating but I hope u get through it okay........ __________________ t.A.T.u. ~ The Revolution of our Lives ~ t.A.T.u. «Be in love. Be yourself. We are.» ~t.A.T.u. YuLen believer! Watch 220 music video here

03-14-2008, 12:43 AM	#6 (permalink)
dragon072891 Official GTF Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: mobile, Alabama Age: 17 Gender: Posts: 1,273	im really not the best person for advice but i have had the same thing happen to me, in almost the same fashion... the only reason i was able to get over him, was because of what he done to me.. he decided he was bi, and tried to get with my sister, well that was a mistake, becaus i have a very large family, with alot of connections,,, and to cut a long story short we rocked his little world but i still have to work with him, and hes really not that bad all i can say, is time heals all wounds,, the sudden rush of feelings you feel is just a cast off regret surfacing the best way to release them faster, is to write down how you feel, then read it aloud, and burn the paper its written on __________________ life is what you make it, it dose'nt come pre packaged,, so i say do a good job because your the only one that cant escape it

03-21-2008, 07:34 PM	#8 (permalink)
AndreHasDied. Official GTF Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: a hellhole in New York Age: 17 Gender: Posts: 10	I believe its one of those things you learn from and helps you in life. so it makes you stronger ^__^ __________________ Myspace.com/Coded_by_god

03-22-2008, 12:11 AM	#9 (permalink)
yingyang69 Official GTF Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Age: 17 Gender: Posts: 83	i just think it's funny that in the first post he said "i work with this kid, lets call him dan" then the next person to post's username is dan^_^ unless it was planned in someway that im not aware of >.< __________________ um...im new....so a hi would be appreciated ^_^ and maby some advice

03-13-2008, 07:32 PM	#2 (permalink)
Dan Official GTF Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Massachusetts Age: 17 Gender: Posts: 160	Hey, sorry to hear you lost someone. Wanna chat or something? pm me

03-13-2008, 07:38 PM	#3 (permalink)
BrianC Official GTF Member Hexxagon Champion! Mini Kickups Champion! Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Limerick, Ireland Age: 16 Gender: Posts: 42	sorry i can't think of any advice i usually can just having a random time... well anyway you live you learn i guess you can just chawk it up to experience and hope you don't make the same mistakes again

03-13-2008, 09:45 PM	#5 (permalink)
jrussoff Official GTF Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Massachusetts Age: 18 Gender: Posts: 23	thanks guys you're all great i think what might cause me to keep coming back to him is that one, he was the first and only guy that i had been serious about and had actually done stuff with and two, that he was the person i turned to for help and anything having to do with coming out and just the whole gay thing. he was there for me through all of that and that probably why its just really hard for me to let go...but im working through it and im going to college in like half a year so im not too worried about this

03-22-2008, 12:03 PM	#10 (permalink)
Dan Official GTF Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Massachusetts Age: 17 Gender: Posts: 160	lol no it wasn't planned that way, not by me anyway. that is funny though I didn't even notice Last edited by Dan; 03-22-2008 at 12:11 PM.

03-22-2008, 02:54 PM	#11 (permalink)
theaznway Official GTF Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Edmonds, WA Age: 17 Gender: Posts: 68	I really know what you mean... Something similar has been going on with me for about a year. There's really no advice to give...the only way to get over it is to just let it fade away. Sorry to say but it takes a while. Hope you feel better!

03-23-2008, 12:07 AM	#12 (permalink)
jrussoff Official GTF Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Massachusetts Age: 18 Gender: Posts: 23	haha i didnt notice that either but his name isnt actually dan yeah the day i posted that story i was just really pissed about everything but me and "dan" have been getting more or less back to normal and yeah its still hard because i do like him, but id much rather have it like this and be friends with him than have it be really awkward and him ignoring me like it was in the fall. but thanks for all the advice and help, you guys really are great __________________ i'm a nice kid who's fun to hang out with and i'm always bored so feel free to contact me

03-24-2008, 08:51 PM	#13 (permalink)
bibutbabyigetit Official GTF Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Gender: Posts: 23	There's a song for this one, baby. The first cut truly is the deepest, and don't we all know it. But there's another song I find to be equally true...every day is a winding road, another fading sign, and we all get a little bit closer to feeling fine. It sounds sappy, but believe me, there was a deep thought behind this. One day, I'll tell you what I meant. __________________ The screen name says it all. Desperate attention seeker with a penchant for theatre queen.

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